Well, here's how fucked up things are. So there's these 2 girls. We'll call the first Harley and the second Ivy. Okay. Harley. I've known her for like what? 6-7 months? At first, it wasn't anything. Nothing really happened. Then, my feelings for her just grew. It grew until the point where I would stay up all night trying to think of ways to talk to her. And when I finally did, it went pretty well. Long story short, she had a guy already. Story of my life. But then, I found out that he was basically a playboy. She found out, got rid of him. And here I am, talking to her everynight, thinking if I might have finally gotten out of this god-forsaken friend zone. It feels like she's interested. She just entertains me everytime I wanna talk to her. But then, it also feels like she's just using me for attention. Maybe she already knows I like her? Well, it's fucking obvious with the way I've been talking to her. If that wasn't complicated enough, enter, Ivy. Ivy, ivy, ivy. She makes me feel like I'm everything to her. She makes me feel wanted. It feels like she really, really likes me. We talk, and when Harley makes me feel like shit, Ivy's there to pick me up. I really like her, but what'll happen to Harley? It's like a death grip, this decision. And I'm afraid that I'll lose one of them if I choose the other. I don't want to lose one, but at the same time, I want one. It's all fucked up. It's messing with me. Langkawi is in a week. I'm going with Harley. What if something happens at Langkawi between Harley and I? What happens to Ivy? Do I just forget about here, just like that? I'm not that kind of guy. I need help with this. I need to talk to Leysha. And Yana. Separately. Fml.
